stupid lists

I'm very much a creature of habit.  I like order. I like a schedule.  Basically I like things done my way.  My to-do list is the same every day of the week.  For example:  Mondays consist of laundry, scrub bathrooms, vacuum the entire house, mop.  Tuesdays is dusting day.  So on and so forth for the whole week. That way I know each day what is on the list and what exactly needs to be done.  I have always liked to do the grocery shopping on Monday so I can have all my meals planned for the week and be done (I still know I'm crazy, you don't have to think it too).  Since school has been out I have still been trying to take four kids grocery shopping on a weekly basis. Heaven knows I am not leaving them home alone.  You would think I could change my routine but I can't bring myself to do it.  I have done it a couple of times at night and I hate it.  It throws everything off.  And when I say everything that means absolutely nothing.  I just hate not doing it when I think I am supposed to do it.  Okay, I am rambling here.  I did have a point to this....I think.  The point is why can't I realize it is easier to throw of my routine than juggle all the kids by myself at the store.  Baylor is good for the most part except for today when he was screaming at the top of his lungs (why are my kids such screamers?) because I took away the shopping list that he had already eaten half of.  Dilon and Grif spent the entire time running and hiding from each other so they could shoot each other with their finger guns.  Sound effects and all are super awesome.  And dax, well today I caught dax licking broccoli.  I hate it when I have to buy something that isn't on the list because my kid licked it.  I spend triple the time necessary at the store because I am constantly trying to find a child, when I should be trying to find the best price on food.  Today I cried in the frozen food aisle.  I'm not kidding.  I called Nate to see if I should buy toaster strudels and he said he didn't care.  He didn't care?  It is a yes or no question.  I need a yes or no answer.  I told him that and his response was "I still don't care".  So I lost it.  He told me I just needed to leave the shopping cart and go home.  Are you kidding me.  I had already spent an hour in hell, there was no way I was leaving it just to go back again later.  So my goal for next week is to shop at night with no kids.  It may mean I throw off my schedule and my to- do list but i'm going to give it a try.  I'm making progress.  I already mentally crossed of my list for tomorrow and penciled in REFILL BIRTH CONTROL!!!